R.I.P - Pops Farm Episode 2

I didn't expect this to be my second journal entry but the old man passed away.

I still can't really believe it - I mean he was fine the last time I spoke to him and then I'm getting a call to say he is in hospital. Sadly he was gone before I got there.

Heart attack. The doctors tell me it was quick and painless so I guess that is a small comfort but yeah it has knocked me for six. I mean one day everything is as it should be and the next everything has changed.

The funeral is next week and I am dreading it - I'm not good with this kind of thing - especially all the well wishers and sympathy. I know people mean well and I know they are offering me comfort but I just don't deal well with this kind of thing you know?.

I will need to go through his affairs and let the relevant people know and I suppose the house will have to be sold - I wouldn't live there myself. I don't know if should just rip it off like a band aid or put it off for a month or two.

It also struck me out of the blue that pops was the only close family I have - sorry had - I have some cousins and pops has a brother and there's a handful of family on mums side as well but none of them are close.

So yeah I guess I am on my own now.